Impatience is a Virtue

So, my last update was that I sent out my first query letter. This caused much squeeing and poorly coordinated dances in my living room. It felt like the beginning of something that I’ve been dreaming of for quite some time.

After the confetti was vacuumed up and the music stopped, I was left with the sudden realization that I had to do something I’m not very good at. Waiting. It’s pretty much business standard that it takes 6-8 weeks for a response and, if they don’t respond, the ringing silence equates “No, thanks. Sorry (not sorry).”

In the meantime, I find myself at bit of a loss. I suppose I could clean up the apartment. Or put out more job applications. Or do a grocery run so I’m not left staring into an empty mini fridge but for beer and yogurt. I could also continue on my other projects (what an idea!), but my fingers keep stumbling over the keys and nothing gets written.

I’m hoping that I can be productive in this nail-biting interim. I hope that I can pull some motivation out of the back of my long-overdue-to-be-organized closet, dust it off, and get to work. This first step just might be that one move in Chutes and Ladders, dragging you all the way back to the beginning. Because when you don’t have a direction, there’s still always backwards.


Published by Ren Martinez

Ren is a thirty-something Lost Boy whose personal aesthetic is “suspected of witchcraft by local villagers.” She subscribes to cheerful nihilism, the destruction of the patriarchy, and the belief that glitter makes everything better. She is a Richmond-based writer and performer who has fiction and non-fiction work found in a variety of publications, such as The Mary Sue, RVA Magazine, The Quotable, and Nostrovia Press. She is currently the fiction editor and a regular contributor at Quail Bell Magazine. She is also the co-host of the podcast, This F***ing Guy! Find out more at or read her dumbass tweets on Twitter @itsrenmartinez

One thought on “Impatience is a Virtue

  1. Is there something wrong with a diet of beer and yogurt?!

    Don’t dwell on negative thinking, you don’t want to turn it into a self-fulfilling prophecy. Easier said than done, I know. Personally, I am looking forward to hearing about when and where we can buy your book(s).

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