To Cut (Synonym: To Carve)

There’s something to be said about a routine.

I’ve been going through some significant life changes as of recent (see previous post for details) and that’s seriously knocked me off my writing schedule. I used to have an hour blocked out every day to try and get these words out. Now, between work and living at home and the beau and the gym and everything, it’s been weeks since I’ve really put anything on paper. Most of these blog posts I’ve managed during breaks at work.

My stories are stagnating inside me; I can feel their edges curl up like wilting leaves.

As April continues, all I can hope is that things will settles – that I’ll have a schedule in place where I can finally carve out that time to sit down, stare at my screen, and let these words out.

It’s like excising wounds. I have to cut myself open in order for the healing to begin.


Published by Ren Martinez

Ren is a thirty-something Lost Boy whose personal aesthetic is “suspected of witchcraft by local villagers.” She subscribes to cheerful nihilism, the destruction of the patriarchy, and the belief that glitter makes everything better. She is a Richmond-based writer and performer who has fiction and non-fiction work found in a variety of publications, such as The Mary Sue, RVA Magazine, The Quotable, and Nostrovia Press. She is currently the fiction editor and a regular contributor at Quail Bell Magazine. She is also the co-host of the podcast, This F***ing Guy! Find out more at or read her dumbass tweets on Twitter @itsrenmartinez

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